so i decided to relocate my blogsite because people (who i dont like) are reading this. and plus this is my past, my new blog is about my life out of high school. just ask me for what it is. IM ME :]
Currently Listening to: I’m Gone I’m Going – Lesley Roy
Remember when you were younger and you had a crush on that cute boy across the playground? Or having that one popular girl smile at you as she walked down the hallway? As humans, our natural instinct is greed. We want to hold hands with that boy or have that kiss with that girl. But what really happens when you get your wish?
Relationships. Some people are in it, some are not. It’s amazing how much effort people put into one relationship to make it work. In a relationship, both sides must put in effort to love and care for each other. It doesn’t work one way, it’s not a one-man job and if you think so, it’s difficult. Trust me.
Relationships don’t always work out; one person, or both, will always end up hurt at the end of a relationship. No matter what you or your partner did. No matter what the situation is, people DO deserve a second chance, but does that always apply if that person is constantly messing up?
I am truly amazed at the amount of people who are still in a relationship where they are victimized. Since most of the time, the males are dominant, I will use them as a reference point.
“Jealousy, Yes jealously will drive you… MAD”. People get jealous. It’s not necessarily bad, but it does when it gets to a certain extent. If a man and woman are in a relationship and the woman has male friends, that can cause jealously. And usually when that happens, the male does not allow his partner to speak to any males whatsoever. This honestly amazes me. How can one person get so jealous and so controlling that they do not allow happiness in a relationship? This brings me to the first Key thing in a relationship:
1. Trust-Without trust, how can you live a healthy relationship?
Speaking of jealously, When one person gets too jealous in a relationship, the other person usually ends up being abused. Physically, Mentally, Verbally, Spiritually, everything. For example, If a man was jealous, he would force her to not speak to any males and would force her to wear certain clothing. That force is supported by fear. Fear of getting hurt physically, with bruises and broken bones everywhere, and spiritually, with a broken heart. But how does fear, jealousy and abuse help in a relationship? It doesn’t As an independent person, I’ve grown to speak out and protect myself. If a man were to ever abuse me, I’d simply fight back. But for others, it is not simple as that. With those three factors, the next key thing in a good relationship is:
2. Love – How can you hurt someone you truly, honestly love. If you can’t let them be free then why restrict
their love to the world? That stuff Blows my mind.
Trust and Love. Very important key factors in a relationship. As long as you love and trust someone, you don’t need money and material items to make you happy. But there is also one last thing you need to keep a healthy relationship:
3. Communication – This helps support your love and trust. If you can’t communicate with the one you love,
how can you tell them what is wrong and what is right? Don’t be afraid to speak up, because in the
end, it helps your relationship grow stronger.
Anyways, that’s the topic of the day. It’s just me, rambling on about how I feel about certain things. But yea. Interesting much?
-Banhzaii
Currently Mellowing out to Gabe Bondoc.
So I have this problem. Or maybe an issue. I get jealous. Easily and Quickly. I try to hide it but there’s always that one point where you can’t really take it anymore. I’m getting pretty fed up with it, but I can’t help it. Nothing’s gonna happen, Nothing’s gonna change. I hate getting jealous, it’s the worst thing in the world.
Anyways, what am I jealous of you ask? The real question is WHO am I jealous of.
This girl.
Why am I jealous of her?
She gets EVERYTHING in life. I don’t want to be mean and say that she doesn’t neccisarily deserve it…. But she doesn’t. I know she’s a chill person and everything once your friends with her, But iono. She always gets her way with everything, she gets everything, everyone likes her, yet she’s a total bitch most of the time. But don’t take this the wrong way. She’s only a bitch to people she doesn’t like, other than that, she’s pretty cool and has your back.
The main reason why I’m jealous of her is that I feel like she’s taking away some of my friends. Pretty ridiculous right? But that’s what I feel like. For example. My best friend who used to despise her, talks to her more than he talks to me. Me! I’m his bestie and I’m not even that close to him anymore. Next is probably that ALL GUYS worship the ground she walks on. Well I guess that shouldn’t be a reason to get jealous of, it’s pretty annoying when people like you, but. “je ne sais pas”. The Last thing which I hate the most is that I’ve been trying to get Steven’s Mom’s approval of me for a hecka long time. I’m scared of her because I’m scared she won’t like me. So on New Years eve, I met her for the first time. Of course I was shy, but I tried to be extra nice to her and everything. This girl KNOWS how much her approval means to me, yet his mom prefers her more than me. Which hella pisses me off.
Anyways.. I dunno, now that it’s all down and out, I feel as though this whole situation is ridiculous. It’s just in my mind. I guess people like her is because of her personality. She’s chill and you can have a conversation with her. People worship the ground she walks on because she’s pretty. My bestie likes her because he can easily joke with her.
Ughh. Depressing stuff. Anyways, I’m out. SHAKE N’ BAKE
–Banhzaii
Man, So many things have happened since the last time I posted.
1. Suprisingly, Steven and I are FINALLY together. YAY! 10.27.08 <3 (i love him, he makes me so happy)
2. Its Official.. No More MARCHING BAND!! (yay! no more stupid smelly uniforms.)
3. All that drama between GOLD/ BLUE and SAM. is finally over.
4. A “new” Drama occured though, with this ONE GIRL that June, Clare, Jessica Lim, and Wilson Yu all dislike. She’s seriously annoying as hell. grr. maybe i’ll rant about her in another blog.
5. Kenny + Lorraine (finally) and Wilson C + Erin. lol
6. Wilson Yu found a new girl to like. GOOD JOB WILSON, but give her space please.
7. i think thats all for now…
ANYWAYS…
Yesterday I took SAT II’s, Math 2. Boring. Saw Brian and Van. Afterwards, cousin and I went over to the Community Center to do community service called “Breakfast With Santa”. At first it was alright. We came late so I had no clue what to do. Then afterwards, I played games with a little girl. So cute. =]. lol. uhh. After that, I walked over to school and played Football, Basketball, and Footbasket. lol. Im getting better. Hopefully I can redeem my chances in challenging Steven to a 1 on 1 match again. Grr.. i G2g. Lorraine’s BDAY is today. HAPPY BDAY. i’ll Blogmore Laterrr.
-BANHZAII
It feels as if it is going downhill…
It could be just me though. First off, Sam’s being cold towards me. Although I didn’t get into an argument with him, it feels as though our friendship is thrown out the window. That’s three years wasted. Hopefully it will go back to normal, Sam’s just being a tad bit immature, I suppose. I know Sam is a nice guy of course, but when it comes down to this, I guess nice is something you wouldn’t expect to use.
Next, me liking “Gold”. I feel that I don’t really like him anymore, mostly because of the fact that he completely likes this other girl. I can’t do anything about it, so I guess that’s it. I’m still super curious about who this “mystery” girl that he used to like is. He’s supposed to tell me. If he said it was me, I’d tell him that I used to like him. But if not, I probably won’t say anything.
I hate it when people lie to me. I asked “blue” straight up if he ever had a girlfriend. and he said that he has been single and his last girlfriend was in eighth grade. But I found out that he had a girlfriend last year and that he cheated on her with this GIRL who I am not fond of, of course.
Lastly, HIM. Remember him? I had ONE huge blog just for him. It’s happening again. I’m going to try hard to not fall for him again, unless I’m certain that he likes me. When I talk to him, it seems like we’re a couple or something. I don’t know. I read back on my previous AIM logs with him and when I liked him then and how I spoke to him is similar to how we are now. Is this time for reals? Or is he just acting that way to be “friendly”? GAH, confusing stuff. Bleh, I’m really tired. I need to finish up home and stuff.
OH today was a fun day. I went shopping with Kenny, Lorraine, and Jennifer. We walked around the mall, tried on dresses, walked around Santana Row, and finally bought a dress. Oh, and ate. =]. We left at 3ish and got home 7/8ish. It was pretty fun. Jen and Lorraine are so random! But that’s what made the day enjoyable. Anyways, off to do homework. Toodles!
–<3Suprabanh
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Woah this picture thingy DOES work! SWEET. lol. Now I can upload pics and stuff. This Was out first football game of Senior Year. It was pretty fun. Look at that terrible tan line. =[
Currently listening to : Sing to me – Run kid Run
OMG so today has been friken awesome so far. So Today at 3 in the morning, Axell called me and we played Truth. In Truth, there are no rules other than you have to tell the truth. To win, one person has to refuse to answer a question. Ex, If I ask someone a question and they dont answer it, that person has to ask me a question and if I answer it, then I win. So yea, we played Truth for an hour, and then I got sleepy. lol.
OK so this morning I went to eat Pho with my family. Our table was split so my parents sat at a table diagonal to us. So I sat with my brothers and after I finished eating, I just sat there and waited. And then, this guy who wore a white shirt, and black skinny (not too skinny) jeans walked in and sat at a table right next to mines. He was like 1 feet away right next to me. We sat on the same side. I was like.. OMG =]. too bad I didn’t get to see his face. But then the most amazing thing happened, I looked down and he wore Brown Moccasins!! I wore my blue ones today! =]. so yea. we’re like Meant to BE! I was totallyy gonna turn and face him, Tap him on the shoulder and say, “Hey, i like your shoes =]” but I didn’t. I’m a weenie. =[.
Haha yea. anyways, I’m about to leave soon to Go Visit KJN and Jen. It’s Jen’s Birthday today!! Well I’ll tell the story of KJN later on if I have time. =\. BYEE. <3
—————————–BANHZAIII’s In <3
Man.. band camp was the funnest today! xD. okok RECAP
8:00– arrived at school for a meeting. Talked about band olympics.
9:00– Everyone came. OMG DAVEN CUT HIS HAIR!! AND GOT GLASSES (he actually looks really cute. Too bad he’s gay..). Then Looked at the drill.
10-12– practiced drill.
12-1– Had lunch with linsey. Walked to Juice City then Nob Hill, Then back (got a stomache ache. >_<)
1-3:30– Went back to the band room and rested for a little.
4:00-End– Band Olympics. BLUE TEAM!! xD. I was team captain. It was soo fun! lol. My team was; Linsey, Gage, Christina, Kenny k, Kieth, Erik, Kreesha, Julia, This colorguard girl, erin, Alan h, Jessica (sax), Serena, Calvin, This trombone guy, Christian, Tyler j, and i think about a couple more people but i cant think of them right now. xD. so yea.
Our first event was the sponge toss where you had 6 people from each team partner up. 3 people go on one side, while their partner is on the opposite side. Our team was pretty bad, but we were really spirited. xD.
second event was the Marshmallow eat. where you had one rep go up and eat the marshmallow rope to the middle while the opposite side went. Then they’d had to finish it all up, first one who did it would go to the next round. so OK. it was Si-yao Vs. eugene. LOL she won. Then it was GAGe (BLUE TEAM) vs john. Gage won. xD then it was John Vs Eugene i think eugene won by defualt. and Gage and si-yao. that was a close one but Si-yao won. So fun. lol
third event was the Paper Airplane throw. Two teams went at a time and when they make the airplane they have to try and aim for the hoop. If it goes through the hoop, then you get 2 pts. but if it goes past the line, you get 1. so yea. our team was Alan h, Linsey, Kieth, Kenny, Erik. We HECKA owned that game. we just tried to hit the line to at least get pts. so yea. xD.
4th event was the shoe toss. You have 10 people; 9 throwers and 1 catcher. The throwers lay on their back and kick the shoes over their head so the catcher can get it. Kieth was the catcher. lol. I dunno if we won, but kieth was really good. He played soccer thats why. LOL.
5th event was Musical Chairs; 10 people from each team go up and play musical chairs. So fun. i think we got 4th. =[. lol but yea. HECKA funny.
And lastly 6th event was tug of war. It was a whole team game. So fun. Our team went to finals but we lost. =[. but ITS OK. we were still HECKA good.
Overall, our team got 3rd. xD. lol. lame, but its better than last right? lol. so yea. I was SOO enthusiastic today. i think i lost my voice. D: But yea. people missed out!! =[. lol FUNNEST day of band camp EVER. im so glad i made friends with the sax section and everything. or else we wouldnt be this great right? LOL. yeaa..
so im just waiting for kenny to call me so i can go to darren’s house. lol. yeaa. toodles.
–banh
Today was better. I got kinda pissed though.
Starts off with Yifan. So basically in band, our seating arrangement is Me, Linsey, Perry. But then there were to seats open today because Yifan sat in Perry’s seat. He apparently didn’t want us to sit together so he TRIED to sit there or something. Which I think is friken stupid. So we asked him if he could scoot down a chair and he refused to. So Linsey and I were basically like WTF why are you trying to do this crap with us? And yea. BUT, I asked Chris to scoot down a chair to make room for Perry and Yifan’s face was like a “OMGWTF” face. LOL. His plan didn’t work. =]. Stupid Yifan. Pisses me off.
Ok the second thing that kinda pissed me off was that I have this freshman named Vicky. I think she’s good but she can’t make up her mind and complains alot. So she wanted to play Trumpet instead of flute and tried it for a day. But apparently its way to heavy for her so she went back to flute. And then she kinda wanted to do baritone and I was like. OMG. Baritone’s like HECKA heavier than trumpet and if she can’t handle trumpet, she won’t be able to handle baritone. But anyways. whatever. Kaldy will talk to her so yea.
SIGHH.. I dunno, I get angry too easily. -_-. But on the other hand, Peter broke up with Linsey. Although she saw it coming, it was still really devastating. But yea. Maybe i’ll get into that later on..
Banhzaii
